After my neurologist diagnosed me with conversion disorder and told me all of my symptoms – including the neuropathic pain in my legs – were psychosomatic, I walked home from the office.
The walk was about a mile. As soon as I walked through the door, I collapsed. My brain and my spinal cord were burning. I was extremely sensitive to sound. I could not touch my chin to my chest. I was bedridden for five months.
It took me awhile to learn that my symptoms get worse with exertion because I had no doctor to tell me that. I have recovered to a certain degree but have never in the last four years been as well as I was the morning before that walk home from the neurologist. I will always wonder if things could have been different if my doctor had understood my disease and had advised me to rest. Or at least, he had truly listened.